I just found out that I am HSV positive and I am really havi

I just found out that I am HSV positive and I am really having a hard time. I still don't know what type I have because when I had my first outbreak my doctor didn't test for the specific type (I didn't ask because I assumed that they would) and now I have to wait to take a blood test since my body has not formed antibodies yet. I've cried every day since I found out and I am just having a hard time getting through the day. Every morning I wake up I have been getting sick to my stomach at the thought of this being the rest of my life to the point where I feel like I'm having an anxiety attack. I had an outbreak a couple days after I hooked up with this kid I met through friends of friends. I remember I almost didn't go out that night so that decision just keeps replaying in my head every day I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive myself. My life has completely changed. I don't know how I am going to get close to any one ever again. Sex is supposed to be enjoyable and I don't see how it's ever going to be enjoyable for me again. Who is ever going to want to be with me knowing that if we have sex they are putting their own health at risk and I would just be paranoid the whole time worrying that I am going to give this other person this disease. I feel so low, disgusting, and hopeless.

show more ⇓
Comment
 4
View 1 More Comment
[280]
Jan 12

@newlydiagnosed I feel the same way. I’m type 1 and 51. I want someone in my life for the rest of my life as well! For me I have to get comfortable with myself again as a man! I figure once I do that and get comfortable then confidence will hopefully follow. Once I’m there I plan on trying a dating site for people that have this disease. I have know idea how well they work but it’s an option. I figure honest is the best policy and if someone that knows I have the disease and wants to date me then they must be truly interested in a relationship. I don’t know if this is the right mentality but that’s how I’m looking at it.

Reply
[90]
Jan 12

@Pisspiss Thank you. I do realize this will take time to accept. I know there are dating sites but for some reason the thought of that makes me uncomfortable and sad that I would need to go to something like that. But I am not looking for anyone right now and I really don't know when I ever will be.

Reply
[815]
Jan 12

Forgiveness and Acceptance lead to Freedom
Easier said than done i know

Reply

Login or Register

You are visiting Support Groups as an anonymous user.

Please consider joining our community and gain access to additional features by

registering or logging into your account